Whole45 or maybe 90

I shared in a previous post, What’s up with me, that I was doing the Whole30 Diet and really enjoying the benefits. On Whole30 you eliminate a lot of foods. I thought I would struggle the most with desserts. I love sweets. I really do. But I cut them out. I actually can’t remember the last time I baked a cake, cookie or muffin in my own kitchen. 

My struggle has been French fries and ketchup. Who knew??? Now, you can have fries but only if you put in the work to peel, cut and bake the or sauté them in an approved oil, deep frying is a no no. The struggle… I’ve had fries with ketchup once a week at least. 

My 30th day was July 4. But since I have not overcome my craving or addiction I’m supposed to start over. I told myself I would not have any this week. But I’ve eaten them twice already. Is there a support group for fry addiction? Would you attend if I started one? My goal, starting Monday, is to go an entire week without one fry. I can do this. 

Are you hormonal?

How often are hormones blamed for a woman’s “attitudes”? How often do others mutter under their breathe, “she must be hormonal”? Depending on the stage of life our moods are attributed to PMS or the various stages of menopause. 

How often are men approach and asked if they’re hormonal? How often do you walk away from a conversation with them thinking, I’ll just avoid him for the next couple of days until the coast is clear? Never?!?! 

When a friend of mine decided we needed to have a heart to heart in which she danced around my new found freedom to speak my mind, her questions came back to, are you hormonally balanced? As I rolled my eyes and threw out some random justifications I reviewed the last five years of my life.

Divorced
Began working full-time after 10 years of being a stay at home mom
Moved twice
A year long custody battle
Incurred legal fees out of the wazoo
Although I’ve been working for the same company for five years I am in my third department
I have four active kids
Attended grad school for two years
I have a teenaged son (enough said)
My ex has been unemployed for about two of those five years (no financial support during that time)
I made some commitments to myself to become a better leader, mom and eventually partner. You see, I typically avoid confrontation but a few years ago I decided to stand my ground and express my opinions.

The answer to the question is maybe but why is that the first thing that comes to mind rather than reviewing my circumstances or just patting me on the back and saying, “congratulations on your personal growth and for not only surviving the last five years but excelling in school as well as work and coparenting four amazing children who are well rounded, funny, and intelligent, all while maintaining a healthy lifestyle and being a great friend to many”? 

I still wonder if I were a man would we have had the conversation at all?